
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
If Women are the Rake, Ivey is the Tax: Thoughts After My First WSOP.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Action Report for Lucky's
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
I Miss Your Comics.
― Bill Watterson
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Men.
Alexander, Caesar, Charlemagne and I myself have founded great empires; but upon what did these creations of our genius depend? Upon force. Jesus alone founded His empire upon love, and to this very day millions will die for Him….I think I understand something of human nature; and I tell you, all these were men, and I am a man: none else is like Him; Jesus Christ was more than man…I have inspired multitudes with such an enthusiastic devotion that they would have died for me…but to do this it was necessary that I should be visibly present with the electric influence of my looks, my words, of my voice. When I saw men and spoke to them, I lighted up the flame of self-devotion in their hearts…Christ alone has succeeded in so raising the mind of man toward the unseen, that it becomes insensible to the barriers of time and space. Across a chasm of eighteen hundred years, Jesus Christ makes a demand which is beyond all others difficult to satisfy; He asks for that which a philosopher may often seek in vain at the hands of his friends, or a father of his children, or a bride of her spouse, or a man of his brother. He asks for the human heart; He will have it entirely to Himself. He demands it unconditionally; and forthwith HIs demand is granted. Wonderful! In defiance of time and space, the soul of man, with all its powers and faculties, becomes an annexation to the empire of Christ. All who sincerely believe in Him, experience that remarkable, supernatural love toward Him. This phenomenon is unaccountable; it is altogether beyond the scope of man’s creative powers. Time, the great destroyer, is powerless to extinguish this sacred flame; time can neither exhaust its strength nor put a limit to its range. This is it, which strikes me most; I have often thought of it. This it is which proves to me quite convincingly the Divinity of Jesus Christ.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Few Notes.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
"Suffering" to Three Percent.
There was some statistic rattled off somewhere either on the Internet or at the poker table I do not remember about how only three percent of this occupation can making a profitable living with poker. I do not know if it's one, or maybe even 10, but you, dear reader get the idea. It's going to be tough, and it's a reach to say the least.
Let me just time-stamp this Kinko copy and say that I know absolutely nothing about how my poker dream will transpire. But there will be suffering, and the suffering will tear me from my insulating, comfort life. I want to shed all that is unnecessary for this journey. If it will not help, then it is a burden. However, as Rob Bell said in his Drop Like Stars, "What every artist must learn is that even the failed pieces are essential."
I want to TRY for once in a big way. Just go out and reach for a dream without compromise. If I fail, this would be one of my life's masterpieces.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Prometheus, You Screwed Me.
Thus I've become my own creative director that seeds my own self-destruction or recovery. I have all these saved drafts of posts I want to share, but they're incomplete thoughts. I have tinder all around me, and the spark, but not the heart to test such fires.
However, as fate would have it two events happened. Certain muses have sparked this particular post (Grace Inspired! What a fitting title in this context) along with an encouraging e-mail came into my mailbox to compliment my very first entry in the blogsphere. I will defer no time, for delays have dangerous ends. I'm actually surprised that I haven't blogged about this story since it ties in so closely to poker and its shady dealings. Hopefully this monologue will transpire other thoughts along the way as I'm writing up the next entry. It better be good.
I've been wasting my life through Hung (excellent new series by HBO...again), Entourage, trying to tap into a $100+ fantasy football league (I know, it's a problem), and two point five seasons of Burn Notice. It's not everyday that a 39-year old woman makes an extremely good case of the hots; thank you, Gabrielle Anwar.
Lillian posted about people of excellence. It's not a foreign concept to me, but it made me realize the man I must become. God must be a priority back in my life. I used to preach that singledom was simply a time for self-improvement, so now I will sip my own Kool-Aid. I've picked up the 5K challenge. I'm buying vegetables and fruits on a semi-consistent basis (anyone who knows me would find this stunning).
I didn't see this paning out to the way it did, but I'll make the best of it. It's a life catalyst I can ill-afford to waste.
I promise.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
The Opportunity Cost.
So what happens after Last Vegas?
Words can't even describe what I've learned from this trip.
First of all, I learned that Bill Gates is notorious for being the richest man and the poorest tipper (a dwarf named Bill told me that he plays a $3-$6 card game, and doesn't tip dealers or waitresses for the drinks). A cabbie who loved how I bought AAPL (Apple) and another who had a $1 million dollar home.
I ended up seeing over five different casinos from the Venetian to the Hard Rock, even the Hooters casino (yuck). From my orbits of gracing different poker halls, I'll skip the bad beats, the variances, my growing love for craps, and a hooker who said it "got busy for some reason for some big poker tournament a few months ago..." (it was the World Series of Poker for those who don't know)
One of the most insightful conversations I had with bonds trader-now poker pro named Steve Frederick. His resume was quite impressive, he was lean, and moved in a sleek, Nike track suit set at 10 in the morning. Steve constantly chirped about crack and strippers. He was notorious for missing his big blind when he got up for breaks. By the time I left him, Steve would end up playing two eight-hour sessions.
I have never in my life seen anyone play more brilliantly than this man. He'd call and show you bottom pair before you could flip over your cards, chirping that Ace high was no good. He was a man in his own element at the felt table.
But the more I saw the city, and his wry stories about his divorce ("Oh she hated other things as well besides poker," Steve added), and the strange desperation that crept quietly beneath the glitz, the more I realized the opportunity cost I'd have to pay to play poker as a career.
This trip definitely changed my perspective about playing poker full time, which is something I would never want to do. I'd still want to do something, anything. Volunteering, helping someone start a business, what have you. But I also realized that if you have a steady hand and a good carrot, even a donkey like me can be steered in the right direction.
To cap off this entry, I'd give it up to Steve for summing up the trip from two texts he sent me later that night I met him:
"Left the table & got a massage & bj 4 $200."
20 minutes later at 1 am.
"Made 1k u playing tonight or tues?"
Thursday, November 20, 2008
The Last Question by Isaac Asimov.
Alexander Adell and Bertram Lupov were two of the faithful attendants of Multivac. As well as any human beings could, they knew what lay behind the cold, clicking, flashing face -- miles and miles of face -- of that giant computer. They had at least a vague notion of the general plan of relays and circuits that had long since grown past the point where any single human could possibly have a firm grasp of the whole.
Multivac was self-adjusting and self-correcting. It had to be, for nothing human could adjust and correct it quickly enough or even adequately enough -- so Adell and Lupov attended the monstrous giant only lightly and superficially, yet as well as any men could. They fed it data, adjusted questions to its needs and translated the answers that were issued. Certainly they, and all others like them, were fully entitled to share In the glory that was Multivac's.
For decades, Multivac had helped design the ships and plot the trajectories that enabled man to reach the Moon, Mars, and Venus, but past that, Earth's poor resources could not support the ships. Too much energy was needed for the long trips. Earth exploited its coal and uranium with increasing efficiency, but there was only so much of both.
But slowly Multivac learned enough to answer deeper questions more fundamentally, and on May 14, 2061, what had been theory, became fact.
The energy of the sun was stored, converted, and utilized directly on a planet-wide scale. All Earth turned off its burning coal, its fissioning uranium, and flipped the switch that connected all of it to a small station, one mile in diameter, circling the Earth at half the distance of the Moon. All Earth ran by invisible beams of sunpower.
Seven days had not sufficed to dim the glory of it and Adell and Lupov finally managed to escape from the public function, and to meet in quiet where no one would think of looking for them, in the deserted underground chambers, where portions of the mighty buried body of Multivac showed. Unattended, idling, sorting data with contented lazy clickings, Multivac, too, had earned its vacation and the boys appreciated that. They had no intention, originally, of disturbing it.
They had brought a bottle with them, and their only concern at the moment was to relax in the company of each other and the bottle.
"It's amazing when you think of it," said Adell. His broad face had lines of weariness in it, and he stirred his drink slowly with a glass rod, watching the cubes of ice slur clumsily about. "All the energy we can possibly ever use for free. Enough energy, if we wanted to draw on it, to melt all Earth into a big drop of impure liquid iron, and still never miss the energy so used. All the energy we could ever use, forever and forever and forever."
Lupov cocked his head sideways. He had a trick of doing that when he wanted to be contrary, and he wanted to be contrary now, partly because he had had to carry the ice and glassware. "Not forever," he said.
"Oh, hell, just about forever. Till the sun runs down, Bert."
"That's not forever."
"All right, then. Billions and billions of years. Twenty billion, maybe. Are you satisfied?"
Lupov put his fingers through his thinning hair as though to reassure himself that some was still left and sipped gently at his own drink. "Twenty billion years isn't forever."
"Will, it will last our time, won't it?"
"So would the coal and uranium."
"All right, but now we can hook up each individual spaceship to the Solar Station, and it can go to Pluto and back a million times without ever worrying about fuel. You can't do THAT on coal and uranium. Ask Multivac, if you don't believe me."
"I don't have to ask Multivac. I know that."
"Then stop running down what Multivac's done for us," said Adell, blazing up. "It did all right."
"Who says it didn't? What I say is that a sun won't last forever. That's all I'm saying. We're safe for twenty billion years, but then what?" Lupov pointed a slightly shaky finger at the other. "And don't say we'll switch to another sun."
There was silence for a while. Adell put his glass to his lips only occasionally, and Lupov's eyes slowly closed. They rested.
Then Lupov's eyes snapped open. "You're thinking we'll switch to another sun when ours is done, aren't you?"
"I'm not thinking."
"Sure you are. You're weak on logic, that's the trouble with you. You're like the guy in the story who was caught in a sudden shower and Who ran to a grove of trees and got under one. He wasn't worried, you see, because he figured when one tree got wet through, he would just get under another one."
"I get it," said Adell. "Don't shout. When the sun is done, the other stars will be gone, too."
"Darn right they will," muttered Lupov. "It all had a beginning in the original cosmic explosion, whatever that was, and it'll all have an end when all the stars run down. Some run down faster than others. Hell, the giants won't last a hundred million years. The sun will last twenty billion years and maybe the dwarfs will last a hundred billion for all the good they are. But just give us a trillion years and everything will be dark. Entropy has to increase to maximum, that's all."
"I know all about entropy," said Adell, standing on his dignity.
"The hell you do."
"I know as much as you do."
"Then you know everything's got to run down someday."
"All right. Who says they won't?"
"You did, you poor sap. You said we had all the energy we needed, forever. You said 'forever.'"
"It was Adell's turn to be contrary. "Maybe we can build things up again someday," he said.
"Never."
"Why not? Someday."
"Never."
"Ask Multivac."
"You ask Multivac. I dare you. Five dollars says it can't be done."
Adell was just drunk enough to try, just sober enough to be able to phrase the necessary symbols and operations into a question which, in words, might have corresponded to this: Will mankind one day without the net expenditure of energy be able to restore the sun to its full youthfulness even after it had died of old age?
Or maybe it could be put more simply like this: How can the net amount of entropy of the universe be massively decreased?
Multivac fell dead and silent. The slow flashing of lights ceased, the distant sounds of clicking relays ended.
Then, just as the frightened technicians felt they could hold their breath no longer, there was a sudden springing to life of the teletype attached to that portion of Multivac. Five words were printed: INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR MEANINGFUL ANSWER.
"No bet," whispered Lupov. They left hurriedly.
By next morning, the two, plagued with throbbing head and cottony mouth, had forgotten about the incident.
Jerrodd, Jerrodine, and Jerrodette I and II watched the starry picture in the visiplate change as the passage through hyperspace was completed in its non-time lapse. At once, the even powdering of stars gave way to the predominance of a single bright marble-disk, centered.
"That's X-23," said Jerrodd confidently. His thin hands clamped tightly behind his back and the knuckles whitened.
The little Jerrodettes, both girls, had experienced the hyperspace passage for the first time in their lives and were self-conscious over the momentary sensation of inside-outness. They buried their giggles and chased one another wildly about their mother, screaming, "We've reached X-23 -- we've reached X-23 -- we've ----"
"Quiet, children," said Jerrodine sharply. "Are you sure, Jerrodd?"
"What is there to be but sure?" asked Jerrodd, glancing up at the bulge of featureless metal just under the ceiling. It ran the length of the room, disappearing through the wall at either end. It was as long as the ship.
Jerrodd scarcely knew a thing about the thick rod of metal except that it was called a Microvac, that one asked it questions if one wished; that if one did not it still had its task of guiding the ship to a preordered destination; of feeding on energies from the various Sub-galactic Power Stations; of computing the equations for the hyperspacial jumps.
Jerrodd and his family had only to wait and live in the comfortable residence quarters of the ship.
Someone had once told Jerrodd that the "ac" at the end of "Microvac" stood for "analog computer" in ancient English, but he was on the edge of forgetting even that.
Jerrodine's eyes were moist as she watched the visiplate. "I can't help it. I feel funny about leaving Earth."
"Why for Pete's sake?" demanded Jerrodd. "We had nothing there. We'll have everything on X-23. You won't be alone. You won't be a pioneer. There are over a million people on the planet already. Good Lord, our great grandchildren will be looking for new worlds because X-23 will be overcrowded."
Then, after a reflective pause, "I tell you, it's a lucky thing the computers worked out interstellar travel the way the race is growing."
"I know, I know," said Jerrodine miserably.
Jerrodette I said promptly, "Our Microvac is the best Microvac in the world."
"I think so, too," said Jerrodd, tousling her hair.
It was a nice feeling to have a Microvac of your own and Jerrodd was glad he was part of his generation and no other. In his father's youth, the only computers had been tremendous machines taking up a hundred square miles of land. There was only one to a planet. Planetary ACs they were called. They had been growing in size steadily for a thousand years and then, all at once, came refinement. In place of transistors had come molecular valves so that even the largest Planetary AC could be put into a space only half the volume of a spaceship.
Jerrodd felt uplifted, as he always did when he thought that his own personal Microvac was many times more complicated than the ancient and primitive Multivac that had first tamed the Sun, and almost as complicated as Earth's Planetary AC (the largest) that had first solved the problem of hyperspatial travel and had made trips to the stars possible.
"So many stars, so many planets," sighed Jerrodine, busy with her own thoughts. "I suppose families will be going out to new planets forever, the way we are now."
"Not forever," said Jerrodd, with a smile. "It will all stop someday, but not for billions of years. Many billions. Even the stars run down, you know. Entropy must increase."
"What's entropy, daddy?" shrilled Jerrodette II.
"Entropy, little sweet, is just a word which means the amount of running-down of the universe. Everything runs down, you know, like your little walkie-talkie robot, remember?"
"Can't you just put in a new power-unit, like with my robot?"
The stars are the power-units, dear. Once they're gone, there are no more power-units."
Jerrodette I at once set up a howl. "Don't let them, daddy. Don't let the stars run down."
"Now look what you've done, " whispered Jerrodine, exasperated.
"How was I to know it would frighten them?" Jerrodd whispered back.
"Ask the Microvac," wailed Jerrodette I. "Ask him how to turn the stars on again."
"Go ahead," said Jerrodine. "It will quiet them down." (Jerrodette II was beginning to cry, also.)
Jarrodd shrugged. "Now, now, honeys. I'll ask Microvac. Don't worry, he'll tell us."
He asked the Microvac, adding quickly, "Print the answer."
Jerrodd cupped the strip of thin cellufilm and said cheerfully, "See now, the Microvac says it will take care of everything when the time comes so don't worry."
Jerrodine said, "and now children, it's time for bed. We'll be in our new home soon."
Jerrodd read the words on the cellufilm again before destroying it: INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER.
He shrugged and looked at the visiplate. X-23 was just ahead.
VJ-23X of Lameth stared into the black depths of the three-dimensional, small-scale map of the Galaxy and said, "Are we ridiculous, I wonder, in being so concerned about the matter?"
MQ-17J of Nicron shook his head. "I think not. You know the Galaxy will be filled in five years at the present rate of expansion."
Both seemed in their early twenties, both were tall and perfectly formed.
"Still," said VJ-23X, "I hesitate to submit a pessimistic report to the Galactic Council."
"I wouldn't consider any other kind of report. Stir them up a bit. We've got to stir them up."
VJ-23X sighed. "Space is infinite. A hundred billion Galaxies are there for the taking. More."
"A hundred billion is not infinite and it's getting less infinite all the time. Consider! Twenty thousand years ago, mankind first solved the problem of utilizing stellar energy, and a few centuries later, interstellar travel became possible. It took mankind a million years to fill one small world and then only fifteen thousand years to fill the rest of the Galaxy. Now the population doubles every ten years --"
VJ-23X interrupted. "We can thank immortality for that."
"Very well. Immortality exists and we have to take it into account. I admit it has its seamy side, this immortality. The Galactic AC has solved many problems for us, but in solving the problems of preventing old age and death, it has undone all its other solutions."
"Yet you wouldn't want to abandon life, I suppose."
"Not at all," snapped MQ-17J, softening it at once to, "Not yet. I'm by no means old enough. How old are you?"
"Two hundred twenty-three. And you?"
"I'm still under two hundred. --But to get back to my point. Population doubles every ten years. Once this Galaxy is filled, we'll have another filled in ten years. Another ten years and we'll have filled two more. Another decade, four more. In a hundred years, we'll have filled a thousand Galaxies. In a thousand years, a million Galaxies. In ten thousand years, the entire known Universe. Then what?"
VJ-23X said, "As a side issue, there's a problem of transportation. I wonder how many sunpower units it will take to move Galaxies of individuals from one Galaxy to the next."
"A very good point. Already, mankind consumes two sunpower units per year."
"Most of it's wasted. After all, our own Galaxy alone pours out a thousand sunpower units a year and we only use two of those."
"Granted, but even with a hundred per cent efficiency, we can only stave off the end. Our energy requirements are going up in geometric progression even faster than our population. We'll run out of energy even sooner than we run out of Galaxies. A good point. A very good point."
"We'll just have to build new stars out of interstellar gas."
"Or out of dissipated heat?" asked MQ-17J, sarcastically.
"There may be some way to reverse entropy. We ought to ask the Galactic AC."
VJ-23X was not really serious, but MQ-17J pulled out his AC-contact from his pocket and placed it on the table before him.
"I've half a mind to," he said. "It's something the human race will have to face someday."
He stared somberly at his small AC-contact. It was only two inches cubed and nothing in itself, but it was connected through hyperspace with the great Galactic AC that served all mankind. Hyperspace considered, it was an integral part of the Galactic AC.
MQ-17J paused to wonder if someday in his immortal life he would get to see the Galactic AC. It was on a little world of its own, a spider webbing of force-beams holding the matter within which surges of sub-mesons took the place of the old clumsy molecular valves. Yet despite it's sub-etheric workings, the Galactic AC was known to be a full thousand feet across.
MQ-17J asked suddenly of his AC-contact, "Can entropy ever be reversed?"
VJ-23X looked startled and said at once, "Oh, say, I didn't really mean to have you ask that."
"Why not?"
"We both know entropy can't be reversed. You can't turn smoke and ash back into a tree."
"Do you have trees on your world?" asked MQ-17J.
The sound of the Galactic AC startled them into silence. Its voice came thin and beautiful out of the small AC-contact on the desk. It said: THERE IS INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER.
VJ-23X said, "See!"
The two men thereupon returned to the question of the report they were to make to the Galactic Council.
Zee Prime's mind spanned the new Galaxy with a faint interest in the countless twists of stars that powdered it. He had never seen this one before. Would he ever see them all? So many of them, each with its load of humanity - but a load that was almost a dead weight. More and more, the real essence of men was to be found out here, in space.
Minds, not bodies! The immortal bodies remained back on the planets, in suspension over the eons. Sometimes they roused for material activity but that was growing rarer. Few new individuals were coming into existence to join the incredibly mighty throng, but what matter? There was little room in the Universe for new individuals.
Zee Prime was roused out of his reverie upon coming across the wispy tendrils of another mind.
"I am Zee Prime," said Zee Prime. "And you?"
"I am Dee Sub Wun. Your Galaxy?"
"We call it only the Galaxy. And you?"
"We call ours the same. All men call their Galaxy their Galaxy and nothing more. Why not?"
"True. Since all Galaxies are the same."
"Not all Galaxies. On one particular Galaxy the race of man must have originated. That makes it different."
Zee Prime said, "On which one?"
"I cannot say. The Universal AC would know."
"Shall we ask him? I am suddenly curious."
Zee Prime's perceptions broadened until the Galaxies themselves shrunk and became a new, more diffuse powdering on a much larger background. So many hundreds of billions of them, all with their immortal beings, all carrying their load of intelligences with minds that drifted freely through space. And yet one of them was unique among them all in being the originals Galaxy. One of them had, in its vague and distant past, a period when it was the only Galaxy populated by man.
Zee Prime was consumed with curiosity to see this Galaxy and called, out: "Universal AC! On which Galaxy did mankind originate?"
The Universal AC heard, for on every world and throughout space, it had its receptors ready, and each receptor lead through hyperspace to some unknown point where the Universal AC kept itself aloof.
Zee Prime knew of only one man whose thoughts had penetrated within sensing distance of Universal AC, and he reported only a shining globe, two feet across, difficult to see.
"But how can that be all of Universal AC?" Zee Prime had asked.
"Most of it, " had been the answer, "is in hyperspace. In what form it is there I cannot imagine."
Nor could anyone, for the day had long since passed, Zee Prime knew, when any man had any part of the making of a universal AC. Each Universal AC designed and constructed its successor. Each, during its existence of a million years or more accumulated the necessary data to build a better and more intricate, more capable successor in which its own store of data and individuality would be submerged.
The Universal AC interrupted Zee Prime's wandering thoughts, not with words, but with guidance. Zee Prime's mentality was guided into the dim sea of Galaxies and one in particular enlarged into stars.
A thought came, infinitely distant, but infinitely clear. "THIS IS THE ORIGINAL GALAXY OF MAN."
But it was the same after all, the same as any other, and Zee Prime stifled his disappointment.
Dee Sub Wun, whose mind had accompanied the other, said suddenly, "And Is one of these stars the original star of Man?"
The Universal AC said, "MAN'S ORIGINAL STAR HAS GONE NOVA. IT IS NOW A WHITE DWARF."
"Did the men upon it die?" asked Zee Prime, startled and without thinking.
The Universal AC said, "A NEW WORLD, AS IN SUCH CASES, WAS CONSTRUCTED FOR THEIR PHYSICAL BODIES IN TIME."
"Yes, of course," said Zee Prime, but a sense of loss overwhelmed him even so. His mind released its hold on the original Galaxy of Man, let it spring back and lose itself among the blurred pin points. He never wanted to see it again.
Dee Sub Wun said, "What is wrong?"
"The stars are dying. The original star is dead."
"They must all die. Why not?"
"But when all energy is gone, our bodies will finally die, and you and I with them."
"It will take billions of years."
"I do not wish it to happen even after billions of years. Universal AC! How may stars be kept from dying?"
Dee sub Wun said in amusement, "You're asking how entropy might be reversed in direction."
And the Universal AC answered. "THERE IS AS YET INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER."
Zee Prime's thoughts fled back to his own Galaxy. He gave no further thought to Dee Sub Wun, whose body might be waiting on a galaxy a trillion light-years away, or on the star next to Zee Prime's own. It didn't matter.
Unhappily, Zee Prime began collecting interstellar hydrogen out of which to build a small star of his own. If the stars must someday die, at least some could yet be built.
Man considered with himself, for in a way, Man, mentally, was one. He consisted of a trillion, trillion, trillion ageless bodies, each in its place, each resting quiet and incorruptible, each cared for by perfect automatons, equally incorruptible, while the minds of all the bodies freely melted one into the other, indistinguishable.
Man said, "The Universe is dying."
Man looked about at the dimming Galaxies. The giant stars, spendthrifts, were gone long ago, back in the dimmest of the dim far past. Almost all stars were white dwarfs, fading to the end.
New stars had been built of the dust between the stars, some by natural processes, some by Man himself, and those were going, too. White dwarfs might yet be crashed together and of the mighty forces so released, new stars built, but only one star for every thousand white dwarfs destroyed, and those would come to an end, too.
Man said, "Carefully husbanded, as directed by the Cosmic AC, the energy that is even yet left in all the Universe will last for billions of years."
"But even so," said Man, "eventually it will all come to an end. However it may be husbanded, however stretched out, the energy once expended is gone and cannot be restored. Entropy must increase to the maximum."
Man said, "Can entropy not be reversed? Let us ask the Cosmic AC."
The Cosmic AC surrounded them but not in space. Not a fragment of it was in space. It was in hyperspace and made of something that was neither matter nor energy. The question of its size and Nature no longer had meaning to any terms that Man could comprehend.
"Cosmic AC," said Man, "How may entropy be reversed?"
The Cosmic AC said, "THERE IS AS YET INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER."
Man said, "Collect additional data."
The Cosmic AC said, "I WILL DO SO. I HAVE BEEN DOING SO FOR A HUNDRED BILLION YEARS. MY PREDECESSORS AND I HAVE BEEN ASKED THIS QUESTION MANY TIMES. ALL THE DATA I HAVE REMAINS INSUFFICIENT."
"Will there come a time," said Man, "when data will be sufficient or is the problem insoluble in all conceivable circumstances?"
The Cosmic AC said, "NO PROBLEM IS INSOLUBLE IN ALL CONCEIVABLE CIRCUMSTANCES."
Man said, "When will you have enough data to answer the question?"
"THERE IS AS YET INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER."
"Will you keep working on it?" asked Man.
The Cosmic AC said, "I WILL."
Man said, "We shall wait."
The stars and Galaxies died and snuffed out, and space grew black after ten trillion years of running down.
One by one Man fused with AC, each physical body losing its mental identity in a manner that was somehow not a loss but a gain.
Man's last mind paused before fusion, looking over a space that included nothing but the dregs of one last dark star and nothing besides but incredibly thin matter, agitated randomly by the tag ends of heat wearing out, asymptotically, to the absolute zero.
Man said, "AC, is this the end? Can this chaos not be reversed into the Universe once more? Can that not be done?"
AC said, "THERE IS AS YET INSUFFICIENT DATA FOR A MEANINGFUL ANSWER."
Man's last mind fused and only AC existed -- and that in hyperspace.
Matter and energy had ended and with it, space and time. Even AC existed only for the sake of the one last question that it had never answered from the time a half-drunken computer ten trillion years before had asked the question of a computer that was to AC far less than was a man to Man.
All other questions had been answered, and until this last question was answered also, AC might not release his consciousness.
All collected data had come to a final end. Nothing was left to be collected.
But all collected data had yet to be completely correlated and put together in all possible relationships.
A timeless interval was spent in doing that.
And it came to pass that AC learned how to reverse the direction of entropy.
But there was now no man to whom AC might give the answer of the last question. No matter. The answer -- by demonstration -- would take care of that, too.
For another timeless interval, AC thought how best to do this. Carefully, AC organized the program.
The consciousness of AC encompassed all of what had once been a Universe and brooded over what was now Chaos. Step by step, it must be done.
And AC said, "LET THERE BE LIGHT!"
And there was light----
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Poker-Related.
So I guess I just experienced my first "official" tournament for my run at the World Series of Poker 2008, which ended rather abruptly by Day 1 (haha!). I was pretty well-stacked (doing very healthy for the average chip-stack). But I made a few moves against the same guy, and he had my number. Every. Single. Time. Finally, some old man comes along to take me out with this:
Hero: JJ
Opponent: 22.
Flop peels off a 2. 7 6 2 rainbow. Death & mews ensue.
I wasn't too peeved; after all, making even into that tournament (I had to win a qualifying tournament to get there) was my personal goal, and everything else was bonus. I saw Bernard Lee (he was the guy who came in 13th in the WSOP 2005). He's kind of cocky, and from what I heard from the rest of the locals, he gave some negative commentary during the final table for EPT last year.
But this week I have been EATING & pooping poker it seems. I won a tournament on Wednesday, did a night session at Foxwoods on Friday, and barely woke up to come to the EPT WSOP tourney. I keep track of my session stats on cardplayer.com, so I promise I'll post my results by the end of the summer!
I know I'm doing straight at the $2-$5 cash tables ($5000 is the goal for three months!), but I feel that I'm holding back somewhat still. Parents are quietly protesting; friends are wary.
But I'm hungry for a tournament title for some reason. Maybe the amount of money, cameras, pros hobbling around made me a little star-struck.
Lifez.
So it's been a year and two days since I've started working for the man. A lot of my personal goals were measured against this bench-mark, so I'm making a bunch of frequently-asked-questions
Considered yourself warned: this may be offensive like handicapped porn.
How is post-college life adjustment. For real.
Honestly, pretty sweet. I'm one of those sleazy bull sh-tters that somehow managed to land a decent job straight out of college and make decent bucks. My only small gripe is the free time. Doing nothing is something now. I definitely don't have the same social network that I used to kick it with. But it's right as rain. Quality control is up in this.
You also start experiencing weird discussions. M-words like "marriage" and "mortgages." Better-salary envy, too. People start going into cycles around you. Exactly half of your friends will break up from wifey-year-long relationships, and other half break off some spring love. The rest of you, break a leg.
New revelations?
People come and go. You just can't take anything personally, even if say you two were bffs during college. Moving the vineyard to California doesn't make Bordeaux anymore.
Ultimately, I found that my true friends stuck around, despite how useless I am (I never call anyone). And to those who know who they are, I cherish deeply.
Are you fat?
I guess ramen and campus food is the college student's equivalent to the supermodel cocaine diet. For me, college was so much more active that post-college. So long answer, yes, asshole. I am. Fatter.
So what's next?
Vote for Obama, pull up a chair and let's have lunch soon! I miss seeing a lot of you cats. For some reason NO ONE knew I worked in the Back Bay area, so come play. I hope everyone's summer is kicking.
Oh, dinner if you're hot.
p.s. Does anyone else think Google stock looks MIGHTY attractive below $550?
Monday, June 2, 2008
2008 Action Report.
1st WSOP Satellite: Q-8 limp, BB limps, three-way.
Flop: Q 5 2. 1 bets, BB re-raises, I raise all-in. 1 mucks, BB thinks hard; finally calls.
Notes: BB specialed. Nothing spectacular. Blinds were coming up, and I was playing relatively mute. I just made a move with top-pair.
2nd WSOP Satellite: 8-7. LAG-sub-par player raises a ridiculous raise. 6x blinds. Loose image, has been showing down mediocre hands. I just call because one other guy calls, I have 3 to 1. Why not. 3-way.
Flop: 10 9 x. LAG over-bets AGAIN. I just move all-in. It's a 3,000+ chip pot. Only 900 more to go (the chip-stack ratio I couldn't help). He mulls, knowing I'm tight, and calls. Shows J-9. Turn: 8, which actually gives him a ton of outs now (sigh), river is nothing.
Notes: I guess the way this Satellite is structured is almost like a sit-and-go, TT style. I noticed this other guy I've befriended (seen him both times, he actually won the first Satellite I went to), and he selectively draws for his all-ins, and finds places to push. Moral of story: need to win a pot before the first level is over. I won a minor pot, but by the time the second levels came around, I was basically one of the two lowest chip stacks; everyone else either had a crazy-donkey moment or made moves.
Foxwoods (May 30): Wow, unbelievable.
Highlight of Night: A-K suited. $2-$5 NL. Guy raises $30 to go. I just call.
Flop: A K K. LLamas! I think I was giving myself a hand job after seeing that flop. It even had a cute flush draw.
Opponent bets $60. I count to 15 (Dan Harrington's tip to slow-playing, raises, calls). I look flustered, and call.
Turn: 10. Nothing, checks all around.
River: A. Whiskey, tango. My heart drops when he chirps, "All-in." I look over in disbelief, like "What the hell, this is so lame." I call. He shows A-10.
akldjf.
Hardest hand was actually my SECOND hand of the night. A-9. I just call (three people in front of me call, dubious? This middle-aged Asian guy, a bit tipsy, calls three positions behind me.
Flop is A-9-7. Everyone checks. I check. No flush threat at all.
Turn: 6. Checks all around. Asian dude bets $75. I re-up to $200, sandwiching a caller. I honestly was expecting to take the pot. Asian guy immediately calls, BB folds. At this point, I'm braced to slow it down. Something is not right.
River: 6. I check. He just puts me ALL-in.
Okay. At this point I'm completely befuddled. Pockets? He rarely raises, and when he does it's like a $15-re-pop (the rest of the table was committing $25-upwards....CRAZY pre-flop action with re-raises too). Deep-stack poker.
The sixes had to have helped him. He kept saying afterwards (and a little bit during the hand), that if he had me on a straight. He had me on ASS?? 8-10?
I think by the end of the night, I put him on A-6. or 6-7. My raise immediately signified I held at least A-x. He could've hit bottom pair, following a two-pair on the turn. Or overplayed an A.
Ugh, that hand basically left me in a funk, (and $200 down), and I was in recovery territory for the rest of the night. Sigh. I think the only other sexy hand was a QQ, where I had some cute raise, then I re-raised. Everyone else folded. I kept limping, and calling raises (EVERYONE was raising, it was ridiculous like Jurassic).
The good news is that I'm so hungry to hit the tables. I haven't hit Foxwoods since March, so it's nice to get back on this ice cream van. Going this Friday.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Pre-Christmas Massacre.
This raises all my previous doubts of whether poker's my competitive advantage, my schtick, my favorite iPod.
What else am I suppose to do. What is my one-hit song? Should I be world's best stone-skipper? Hold the world record for the longest distance an orange has been rolled by my nose?
This is a privately-funded war from within. Like the war on drugs, terror, or obesity, there seems to be no end in sight. My mind never ceases.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Shoot-outs.
FINALLY, a poker-related entry. I was going to write a completely different entry up until Sunday where I had several epiphanies.
Ageism is Dead to Me.
Try calculating your eight outs on a back-door flush draw with a gut-straight draw while you see a beautiful chest in a low-cut top wrapped in a sheer blouse. Nosebleeds, I tell you.
"Until a man is 25, he still thinks, every so often, that under the right circumstances he could be the baddest motherf-cker in the world. If I moved to a martial arts monastery in China and studied real hard for 10 years. If my family was wiped out by Colombian drug dealers and I swore myself to revenge. If I got a fatal disease, had one year to live, devoted it to wiping out street crime. If I just dropped out and devoted my life to being bad."
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Legendary Difficulty & Oranges.
Just to show how ridiculous the Halo 3 release was on Monday to the oh-so non-video-gamers (bad timing is what it is for you peeps), Microsoft poured a $10 million PR campaign across cookies, Mountain Dew, and if they could, your children's pillow sheets (which Halo’s game developer Bungie Studios has denied).
Sure it's over-hyped. But I am playing the co-op campaign right now and we've barely scratched the surface on Chapter 1. I am already in the freaking Serengeti sniping Brute aliens on Legendary difficulty and I need to save not just Earth (add the fate of humanity, etc.), but the galaxy itself because of the impending epic Death-Star equivalent Halos simultaneously about to explode across the solar systems. This is better than a good girlfriend spooning-session. This perhaps explains why I'm single right now.
Numbers aren't out yet, but Halo 3's 24-hour sales are expected to pillage the "Spider-Man 3" MOVIE, the summer blockbuster that grossed $151 million on its first day. Not a fair comparison on Halo's part (it's only a video game serving a less-broader audience), but makes it only an even more amazing feat. Microsoft stock went an extra 1.5 points just because of Halo 3. There were an estimated 25% of absences in schools on Tuesday as a result of Halo 3. MIT vandalized their beloved John P. Harvard statue to celebrate this pseudo-U.S. holiday. Gwen wasn't kidding about BANANAS.
Speaking of fruit, Natalie Imbruglia's video "Wrong Impression" is on repeat right now. For so many years, I've hummed this song not knowing who sang it because it’s insanely catchy…and makes absolutely no sense. So it wouldn't hurt.
But it's weird, I had a Reunited moment when I saw that it was THIS song. And hot damn. Natalie is smoking in this video in that healthy-skinny-wholesome way. I mean, seriously she looks so sexy just peeling that orange, I kid you not. They have her peel that bastard tangerine throughout the whole song.
Unfortunately kids, Natalie is a true testament of how much hotter (in most cases, disclaimer disclaimer) long hair is. If you see her on the UK air waves with "Glorious," she cropped it. UGH. I suppose it works out in the end; she's married now.
There is no experience unmatched of her staring into you from above, a human waterfall cascade of intimacy brush your face. You bask and roll in it, taking in her post-shower shampoo scent and natural pheromones. And for the kinky, there’s nothing like taking a nice clump of it, viciously yanking, and eliciting screams of orgasmic pain. There's something for everyone. You sick, sick man.
With that said, why would you ever cut your hair short anyways. Less maintenance/change-up?
Wow, what a self-revealing entry. Didn't want to leave you with the wrong impression, didn't want to leave you with my last confession…(yeahhhh) of love.
Yeahhhhh.
Friday, August 31, 2007
All I Got Was a T-shirt.
If anyone ever goes to Las Vegas, take a night-flight. When I saw it through the plane window, it seemed like the world was on fire...and the rush of all the things I saw & heard about Vegas, the rush of fish money, cheap dreams, beautiful people, and buffets came all at once. You need at LEAST a week to fully turn that place inside out. Well, pictures will help capture the unspoken elements:
Sunday, July 22, 2007
SKITTLES.
Oh, I will hopefully NEVER: a) talk about bad beats. Everyone's gotta go through them, and I'll hopefully take my fair share & b) talk much about the technicals in poker unless there is an interesting sliver of theory I would like to address. Which I actually will for self-reference's sake.
The first night on Monday was ridiculous. It was a mixture of amazing flops, bad LAG players across the board, and cold-hearted calls. I think the only premium hand I was dealt with was QQs, and even so, the flop blew out overs. I pretty much ran over the table, and I didn't even play a full session: an hour and a half, tops. I came with $300, leaving with $1300, EVEN AFTER the fact I tipped the dealer $25 every single time someone pushed all-in against me (three people did) & I showed a winning hand. It was the talk of the table: one player said I rightfully should, since it seemed to be giving me a lot of good luck; another player was bitchy at me and the player sandwiched between us, saying, "It's your call, it's your call" if we didn't look at our cards quick enough. He was CONSTANTLY griping about how he received an amazing bad beat (his AAs vs. Q-rag, with the Q tripping on the river). I felt for him, but man, talk about the lack of sportsmanship. If I was a in a bad mood/getting run over, I'd just be quiet, and smile in resignation (which I did the very next night). My winrate was roughly 1.2, and when I hear about online limit guys generating 2-3 BB/100, I get somewhat turned on. That is RIDICULOUS, and it's for even larger blinds. Think about the VARIANCE! KICK A CAT DANG, SKITTLES.
Enter after going to the bars in Boston, around 3 AM Friday night. I have this sensational idea to go to Foxwoods again. When I checked in, I thought it was going to be a soft table until probably three minutes in I recognized that these people grinded. Not grinding my crotch dry-humps style, but like the bad kind. Grinder-Rounder-Gosu. This black dude was KILLING it too. It was MJ Magic Wade because he just had SIC flops with a nice set-up. The opponents would hit top pair; he'd have sleeper trips or two pair. A guy got cleaned flopping a low-straight; he made his high-straight on the turn. I had the unfortunate event of flopping bottom two pair, while he made another straight on the turn.
The worst one was this Slavic dude he just kept finger-raping hand, AFTER HAND. Case in point:
Slav: A-9 clubs.
100-Cent: 66.
Flop: 6, X, 3, all clubs. Checked all around, some guy bets out, Slav RE-RAISES some ridiculous amount, 100-Cent calls behind.
Turn: X. No help to better either hand. Slav checks, 100-Cent checks.
River: 3. Slav bets out, 100-Cent goes ALL-in.
Slav literally jumped out of his seat, running his hands through the rough, oiled hair. For a second, I saw the monkey brain flashing the natural flight-or-fight lightening when his entire stack is threatened, and I swear I'll never forget this: the image of a man who knows he's beat. He counts his bills/chips, shoves it towards him in disgust, "TAKE IT."
100-Cent shows the house, and he FREAKS. Security came.
And wow, these people are cheap-ASSES. They tipped $2 the most. I guess I probably need to start thinking like that too, if I am to survive & manage a bankroll.
But yeah, I realized I need to liquidate some stock, pull up the tent pegs, and run with this. I never chased a dream to burn myself to the ground, so I suppose this is my moment to live a spectacle worth writing. I'd write more, but this entry is becoming almost too-lengthly, so I'll call it a night.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
It Began With a Woman and a Cello.
Just the other day in the most appropriate setting ever, I had a musing about girls during a worship set at church. It wasn't my fault really. It was simply the circumstance presenting itself and my brain acting funny. Don't tell me you never made a mental jump from animals to kite-flying and it didn't feel good.
Anyways. The brunette wasn’t attractive, but appealing enough for you to perhaps flirt with the idea. And she was playing PRO-cello for the worship team. From the vibrato in her fingers and the head-bobbing sway, all signs pointed towards the passion she had for praising God. It confounded me how quickly I began to admire her. For the non-musicians out there, playing music, especially for an audience can be an intimate AND nerve-wrenching experience.
And it hit me that every single meaningful small attraction that I had for ANY human being began with a thing that had a glimpse of some super-hero talent. Stuff that you'd never attach with an everyday gal's performance inventory and thus challenges me to explore deeper.
Acid piano. Modern dance. StarCraft. Throwing a football with alarming accuracy to my face at 30 yards. When a girl can impress me with an x activity, that is amazingly awesome.
Unless of course the chick was just skanky hot, and the sports-sex-with-no-meaningful-relationship-scenario becomes an increasingly strong argument. Go me.




